To the boy I loved briefly

To the boy I loved briefly, You’ve taught me about life and love.You’ve taught me how self love is as important as romantic love. You’ve taught me to accept my flaw as if they were my badge of honorYou’ve taught me the responsibilities that comes with love, the sacrifice, the comprise, the “I need you…

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What love does.

I still remember as if it were yesterday, the day I learnt i was holding on to thin air, the day I learnt, maybe just maybe it was time I picked myself at least this once. But as shameful as it is for me to admit now, i hadn’t at that time. i picked love…

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What can a girl do?

What can a girl do when all she ever had is broken pieces of her soul What can a girl do when she has to work extra hard to get what’s already rightfully hers What can a girl do when all she ever known is love that’s half empty, love that ridicules, love that tortures…

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I’ll say this while…

So I’ll say this while I am still angry, while I can say it with conviction and love mixed with sternness… I’ll say this before I allow myself to “get it”, get why we self destruct and self sabotage. I’ll say this while I am still angry – angry at the states we allowed ourselves…

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I want to write.

I stare at a blank page contemplating how to precisely describe my feelings. I keep on putting down the Pen or just switching back to mindlessly scrolling down my Instagram feed… I want to write about every truth I desperately want to hold on to, every experience I read somewhere and want to be apart…

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A hostage, to the other side.

Sunshine all around is what you see and I try my best to keep it that way, as long as forever if you know what I mean. But there’s an other side, A side I can’t trust with anyone, a side where there’s nothing but darkness despite all the light around, A side where I…

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I had to hug you

I had to hug you. I had to hug you, Even though all I wanted to do was to strangle you to death I had to hug, Even when my heart was bleeding from the dagger you so mercilessly used to cut deeper and deeper into it I had to hug, When all I wanted…

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Tea, please?

As I sipped the remaining of my tea, my thoughts drifted back on how much has changed in the past couple of months. There I was on a Saturday morning, having a cup of tea with someone I completely disagreed with on everything that was important to me, to my values and principles. I say…

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I wonder.

I wonder, How you are able to fall asleep at night knowing you have wasted your day away. I wonder, How you can wake up in the morning, knowing that today is going to be the same as yesterday and so will tomorrow. I wonder, If you are ever tired? Bored perhaps? From doing the…

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Have you awaken?

She peeps into her room, as the morning first rays break free, praying her daughter’s light have not been dimmed forever… just yet. She gave up the hope of seeing her baby okay right after she was born. Hospital visits, Quran saar, late night prayers, there’s nothing the mother hadn’t done, but all she has…

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