I’ll say this while…

So I’ll say this while I am still angry, while I can say it with conviction and love mixed with sternness… I’ll say this before I allow myself to “get it”, get why we self destruct and self sabotage. I’ll say this while I am still angry – angry at the states we allowed ourselves…

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I want to write.

I stare at a blank page contemplating how to precisely describe my feelings. I keep on putting down the Pen or just switching back to mindlessly scrolling down my Instagram feed… I want to write about every truth I desperately want to hold on to, every experience I read somewhere and want to be apart…

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I had to hug you

I had to hug you. I had to hug you, Even though all I wanted to do was to strangle you to death I had to hug, Even when my heart was bleeding from the dagger you so mercilessly used to cut deeper and deeper into it I had to hug, When all I wanted…

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Tea, please?

As I sipped the remaining of my tea, my thoughts drifted back on how much has changed in the past couple of months. There I was on a Saturday morning, having a cup of tea with someone I completely disagreed with on everything that was important to me, to my values and principles. I say…

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I wonder.

I wonder, How you are able to fall asleep at night knowing you have wasted your day away. I wonder, How you can wake up in the morning, knowing that today is going to be the same as yesterday and so will tomorrow. I wonder, If you are ever tired? Bored perhaps? From doing the…

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Have you awaken?

She peeps into her room, as the morning first rays break free, praying her daughter’s light have not been dimmed forever… just yet. She gave up the hope of seeing her baby okay right after she was born. Hospital visits, Quran saar, late night prayers, there’s nothing the mother hadn’t done, but all she has…

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Son.

Son, I have met many broken men, some I danced with, some i was an object to, some I took the role of a healer, some I was nothing but a decoration for their amusement, some punched me in the gut just to idealize how it feels like to be powerful and some lured me…

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Home, all along.

You look happier. Actually i am. Happier. You see, i have stopped looking, searching, longing, for moments, for life, for a person, for a career, for a better tomorrow. And, When i did, when i stopped looking; a veil was removed from my eyes, everything i always yearned for, was here all along. Within me.…

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To hold on, To let go.

Why are you so scared all the time? Why do you fear the processes of letting go and holding on?” It is a complex thing. When I hold on, I fear that maybe whatever I am holding on to will find a way to escape my grip, and when I let go I fear, maybe…

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The light at the end of the tunnel

Dear Lost Soul, I could pretend to understand what you are going through but I won’t, despite having been in such a situation myself. I could give you a crazy amount of advice, tips, or rather steps to guide you to a better life. I could give you a blueprint, no, I could give you…

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