I had to hug you

I had to hug you.

I had to hug you,

Even though all I wanted to do was to strangle you to death

I had to hug,

Even when my heart was bleeding from the dagger you so mercilessly used to cut deeper and deeper into it

I had to hug,

When all I wanted to do was to scream at you to open your eyes to see the pain you are causing

I had to hug,

I had to, because I have no other choice, because that’s all I can do for now

I had to hug,

But I hope there will come a time, when I don’t have to hide behind my smile, when I can hold you accountable for what you’ve done

I had to hug,

For survival. And I hope time doesn’t come to a still until I didn’t have to…

Hug you for survival.

I had to hug you.