While you weren’t there

While you weren’t there, I put on your shoe, cleaned the mess, took your responsibility, handled it like i was meant for it..

While you weren’t there, I kept on making excuses for you, kept on making stories, mostly fantasies about how great you are and made sure to pass on the story to the ones you left behind…

While you weren’t there, I tried, I failed and I succeeded…

While you weren’t there, I finally realized my fantasies about you would never be enough…

While you weren’t there, I stopped waiting, I stopped blaming, i stopped bleeding and got my shit together…

While you weren’t there, I started living.

But now,

You finally realize you shouldn’t have left at all and want your shoe back?

And,

How am I supposed to do that now that it fits perfectly?

How can I let you have back what I worked so hard for, while you weren’t there?